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Journal Entry: Fri Mar 28, 2008, 6:22 PM
Yay for being artless. I haven't had much inspiration lately, so my art abilities have declined. I sunk into a depression a while ago. I still have things I haven't put up yet, that I wanted to a month or two ago. Never did do that; might here in the future, though.

When spring rolls around I'm gonna try to do some photography. Even though there is NOTHING in Lapel. Hopefully I can get some friends to do some posing. I would REALLY like that. Fucking awesome.


Have you ever wanted to tell someone something... but you just can't, for your life's sake? Where... you want someone to know something, but can't find yourself able to tell them? Whether it be for the sake of friendship or getting rejected...
When as far as you know, they don't know, but you hope they do, even when you know they don't? God... I hate keeping things inside. It's affecting me negatively, and greatly. A while ago I almost stabbed myself... but my sister walked in and diverted my attention. That was weeks ago. I almost did the same thing last night. But you know... I wouldn't have done it anyways. I'm a coward, scared of knives, and not stupid enough to. But that doesn't mean I can't have a death wish. :|

  • Mood: Yearning
  • Listening to: Chain- BACK-On (Air Gear theme- full version)
  • Drinking: Pepsi. Ownage.

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~Keithager:iconKeithager: May 2, 2008, 10:28:14 PM
I realize this journal entry is over a month old, but I just wanted to let you know that I do know what it's like, wanting to tell someone something but not being able to bring yourself to do it. I guess, more than anything, what got me out of that situation was sheer frustration with myself for being so afraid. What's important to keep in mind though is that if these people are really your friends, then they'll accept you no matter who you are. And if they can't accept you, then maybe they're not worth you worrying about their friendship anyway?

I dunno, just a thought. =) </soapbox>

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"Eagles may soar, but weasels don't get sucked into jet engines."
--Ronnie Shakes
~Thystan:iconThystan: May 3, 2008, 6:51:32 AM
Yea. I figured this out, lawl. It seems that its hard to trust much of anyone now. Emotions are strong matters, and mine are a little too strong.

Thanks for the thought. ;)

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It's not what I think is wrong, it's what I KNOW is wrong when no one else will admit that it's wrong. It's not what's bothering you, it's why it's bothering you in the first place. It isn't me, it's you.