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All Deviations
All Deviations
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Devious Journal Entry

Journal Entry: Sat Jun 28, 2008, 10:05 PM
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•HIGH CLASS:•
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•[ ]You go/have gone tanning. (Hells no! Tanning is bad bad baaad!)
•[x]You own an iPod/mp3 player.
•[x]You love Starbucks. (Yay Hot Chocolate)
•[x]You have been called a brat.
•[]You have tons of shoes. (Guilty. Me likey me combat heels. :bucktooth:)
•[ ]You hate buying things that are on sale.
•[ ]You have a laptop.
•[x]You love shopping.
•TOTAL: 4 out of 8
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•GOTHIC:•
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•[x]Black is one of your favorite colors.
•[x]You wear chains.
•[x]You like heavy metal. (Sometimes)
•[x]You've shopped at hot topic
•[]You have worn black lipstick.
•[]You have/had/or wanted piercings.
•[]You own a pair of Tripp pants (Dammit do I want)
•[x]You have at least one unnaturally colored haired friend.
•TOTAL: 5 out of 8
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•SKATER:•
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•[ ]You can skateboard.
•[ ]You like plaid.
•[]You have/love Converse.
•[x]You hate mtv.
•[x]You have/had/wanted blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair.
•[ ]You love mohawks
•[x]You LOVE Music.
•[x]Hate people who pretend to be something they are not
•TOTAL: 4 out of 7
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•EMO:•
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•[x]You are depressed sometimes. (ALL the time.)
•[ ]You have dark colored thick-rimmed glasses.
•[x]You cry easily.
•[ ]You like emo music .
•[x]You've kept a journal/diary.
•[x]You have written a sad poem.
•[x]You have dyed your hair
•[ ]You're sad when you're drunk.
•TOTAL: Meh 5 out of 8
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•GHETTO:•
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•[]You like rap. (... make me vomit, please.)
•[]You have said "Fo Sho, Fo Shizzle, Fo Sheezy, etc."
•[]You have worn/wanted a grill.
•[x]You have had a freestyling contest. (This used to be fun.)
•[]You have worn your shoes with the tongue flipped out.
•[]You've said the N word to a black person and didn't get punched
•[]You know most of the lines from Boyz N Da Hood
•[]You own a huge gold chain with a giant gold pendant
•TOTAL: 1 out of 8
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•HARDCORE:•
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•[X]You like loud music.
•[ ]You love/like the Ninja Turtles.
•[X]You have/had slip-on shoes.
•[]You like Norma Jean. (fuck this band)
•[x]People have called you a freak and meant it lovingly
•[ ]You love to "hardcore" dance
•[x]Your hair has been dyed more than one color.
•[x]You wear jeans a lot. (ALL THE TIME)
•TOTAL: 4 out of 8
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• PREP:•
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•[ ]You LOVE The OC.
•[x]You had/have/want a tiny/small sized dog. (Have, but hate.)
•[]Your usual outfits consist of pink. (That would be awesome!)
•[]You like buying shoes A LOT.
•[x]You say "awesome" at least once a day.
•[]You shop at Hollister, AE,and/or Abercrombie
•[]Getting your nails done is a fun thing. (If you do it yourself.)
•[]You had/have big sunglasses.
•[x]You can't go anywhere without your hair perfect. (Er...)
•TOTAL: 3 out of 8
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•ATHLETIC:•
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•[]You watch the Superbowl. (FUCK SPORTS.)
•[x]You own track shoes or cleats other sports related shoes. (Who doesn't.)
•[]You collect jerseys.
•[x]You have/ had special shelf for trophies and awards.
•[]Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment.
•[x]You belong/belonged to a team.
•[]You have a specific number preferred for your jersey.
•TOTAL: 3 out of 7
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•SCENE:•
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•[]You like putting little bows in your hair
•[]You have mini-skirts.
•[x]You have parted your hair to the side.
•[]You think polka-dots are way cute.
•[]You have done a peace sign while you pose for a picture.
•[]You've been called scene before.
•[]You have dyed your hair a bright, neon color
•[]You wear/wore long, colorful socks with your skirts/shorts
•TOTAL: 1 out of 8
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•REDNECK:•
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•[]Gone four wheeling.
•[x]Went hunting.
•[]Owned a four/three-wheeler or dirt bike
•[x]Like to go fishing. (Kill me.)
•[x]Eat beef jerky
•[]Ever said GIT-R-DONE.
•[ ]Listened to the song Redneck Woman.
•[]Know who Bocephus is.
•TOTAL: 3 out of 8
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•METALHEAD:•
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•[ ]You wear band shirts alot.
•[x]If people down talk metal you down talk their favorite music.
•[x]You like bands like As I Lay Dying, Lamb Of God, and All That Remains. (Lamb of God, bitches.)
•[ ]You HATE emos.
•[ ]You love Black Sabbath.
•[]You have gone to Ozzfest. (kind of curious though)
•[X]You like to headbang. (Yup! :3)
•[X]You don't like rap. (I should shoot for asking.)
•[ ]You have a taste for classic rock as well.
•TOTAL: 4 out of 9

  • Mood: Defeated
  • Listening to: Hurt- Nine Inch Nails
  • Playing: Maple Story

Myself.

Journal Entry: Sun Jun 15, 2008, 7:27 PM
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[x] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. (Does the B Honor Roll count? XD)
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[ ] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[ ] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[x] I'm engaged. Thystan: (Mentally XD)
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I was.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[x] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[ ] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I've woken up crying.


Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[x] I've attempted suicide.
[x] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books. (Does manga count as comic books?)
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[x] I can sing well. Thystan: (Well, I don't think so. But other people have said so.)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower. Thystan: (Got a problem?)
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ]I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] All of those are answered honestly.

  • Mood: Defeated
  • Listening to: Lamp Halo- Zeromancer

Fear.

Journal Entry: Sun Jun 15, 2008, 5:33 PM
x = Somewhat
xx = Greater
xxx+ = huge enormous crippling omg fear

A
[ ] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
[xx] Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[ ] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
[xxx+] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds.
[XXX+] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[ ] Androphobia - Fear of men.
[xx ] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking.
[ ] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers.
[xxx] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.
[ ] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched.
[xxx+] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders.
[ ] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers.
[ ] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightening.
[x] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness.
[x] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection.
[ ] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure.
[ ] Autophobia - Fear of being alone.

B
[ ] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria.
[ ] Barophobia - Fear of gravity.
[xx] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes.
[ ] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians.
[ ] Bibliophobia - Fear of books.
[ ] Botanophobia - Fear of plants.

C
[x] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness.
[xx] Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed publicly.
[ ] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors.
[ ] Chionophobia - Fear of snow.
[ ] Chromophobia - Fear of colors.
[x] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks.
[ ] Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces.
[xxx] Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns.
[ ] Cyberphobia - Fear of computers.
[ ] Cynophobia - Fear of dogs.

D
[ ] Dendrophobia - Fear of trees.
[ ] Dentophobia - Fear of dentists.
[ ] Domatophobia - Fear of houses.
[x] Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents.

E
[ ] Ecophobia - Fear of the home.
[ ] Elurophobia - Fear of cats.
[ ] Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers.
[ ] Equinophobia - Fear of horses.

G
[x] Gamophobia - Fear of marriage.
[ ] Genuphobia - Fear of knees.
[xxx+] Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public.
[ ] Gynophobia - Fear of women.

H
[ ] Heliophobia - Fear of the sun.
[ ] Hemophobia - Fear of blood.
[ ] Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles.
[ ] Hydrophobia - Fear of water.

I
[ ] Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors.
[x] Insectophobia - Fear of insects.

K
[ ] Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms.

L
[ ] Leukophobia - Fear of the color white.
[ ] Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes.
[x] Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth.

M
[ ] Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking.
[ ] Melanophobia - Fear of the color black.
[x] Microphobia - Fear of small things.
[xx] Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs.

N
[ ] Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things.
[ ] Noctiphobia - Fear of the night.
[xxx+] Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals.

O
[ ] Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight.
[ ] Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
[ ] Ombrophobia - Fear of rain.
[ ] Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes.
[xxx] Ornithophobia - Fear of birds.

P
[ ] Papyrophobia - Fear of paper.
[xx] Pathophobia - Fear of disease.
[ ] Pedophobia - Fear of children.
[x] Philophobia - Fear of love.
[xxx+] Phobophobia - Fear of being afraid.
[ ] Podophobia - Fear of feet.
[ ] Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple.
[ ] Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns.
[xxx+] Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying.
[ ] Pyrophobia - Fear of fire.

S
[ ] Scolionophobia - Fear of school.
[ ] Selenophobia - Fear of the moon.
[x] Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation.
[ ] Somniphobia - Fear of sleep.

T
[xx] Tachophobia - Fear of speed.
[ ] Technophobia - Fear of technology.
[ ] Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder.
[XXX+] Trypanophobia - Fear of injections.

V-Z
[x] Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women.
[ ] Verminophobia - Fear of germs.
[xx] Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft.
[ ] Xenophobia - Fear of strangers.
[ ] Zoophobia - Fear of animals.



... if you were scared of computers how would you be taking this quiz...?

  • Mood: Compassion
  • Listening to: Lamp Halo- Zeromancer
  • Eating: Cheese (what the fuck is wrong with me?!)

Almost

Journal Entry: Wed May 21, 2008, 5:50 PM
That's what time it is.

Summer. I HATE summer. Especially this one, because of many various things.

But yey photography! I'm going to FORCE a select few of my friends to pose variously for some certain shots. Because I have three or four nice ideas. NICE ideas. In MY opinion.

But lately I've been writing a lot, and most of it I'm not putting on DA. Only what I find worthy. Some of it is personal, so I'm not gonna post that stuff- but ALL of it has to do with my current emotional stage.

But yea... that's basically the lowdown.

I'm hoping to go to Castleton Mall (Castleton, IN) a LOT, to go 'guy hunting'.

Getting aroused by men at the mall totally floats my boat. Like... out of the water. Down the street, into your garden hose.

  • Mood: Obsessed
  • Listening to: Into the Depths- Here Among Wolves
  • Reading: What I Wrote.
  • Drinking: Milk

Hm...

Journal Entry: Fri Mar 28, 2008, 6:22 PM
Yay for being artless. I haven't had much inspiration lately, so my art abilities have declined. I sunk into a depression a while ago. I still have things I haven't put up yet, that I wanted to a month or two ago. Never did do that; might here in the future, though.

When spring rolls around I'm gonna try to do some photography. Even though there is NOTHING in Lapel. Hopefully I can get some friends to do some posing. I would REALLY like that. Fucking awesome.


Have you ever wanted to tell someone something... but you just can't, for your life's sake? Where... you want someone to know something, but can't find yourself able to tell them? Whether it be for the sake of friendship or getting rejected...
When as far as you know, they don't know, but you hope they do, even when you know they don't? God... I hate keeping things inside. It's affecting me negatively, and greatly. A while ago I almost stabbed myself... but my sister walked in and diverted my attention. That was weeks ago. I almost did the same thing last night. But you know... I wouldn't have done it anyways. I'm a coward, scared of knives, and not stupid enough to. But that doesn't mean I can't have a death wish. :|

  • Mood: Yearning
  • Listening to: Chain- BACK-On (Air Gear theme- full version)
  • Drinking: Pepsi. Ownage.